random thoughts for today

i was just reading brandon's blog & he is doing 30 letters in 30 days. an interesting exercise i thought when i found out about it. so, being a friend of his i began to read his letters....the one to  his dad reduced me to tears. today i thought i would take a moment and catch up with his blog project...and found a letter to me. uh...color me surprised....and touched beyond words. it shows me that we, as humans, touch each others lives even more than we think we do. i knew it was hard on brandon and other friends who came to the hospital after my stroke to see me like that...it was hard to be seen like that. i am SO not the helpless type. in his blog brandon mentions that he knew i was in good hands with bruce. i think few of our friends truly understand the power that is bruce. he is difficult for some to understand as he has little patience with those who can't keep up. in fact, bruce has little patience with most of the world...lol. i think until i got so sick, even i didn't quite get what bruce is capable of. i knew he helped people, but i had no idea how much...or how many. he is truly anonymous about how many he helps. he slips brand new crisp $100 bills into the hands of those he considers truly needy. i have known bruce over 10 years & for many of those years i was his sponsor, but i never knew he did that until one night after a meeting he slipped it into my hand. this was after my heart attack in '04 & he has been quietly helping me ever since. he also takes care of his aging mother & in the midst of his own health problems eased his father's passing from this world. he seems so scattered to people who do not take the time & trouble to know him better...their loss. of all our mutual friends i worry about bruce the most....i think my most common comment to bruce over the years has been..."slow down....bruce,bruce....hey bruce...you have GOT to slow down before you burn yourself out." has he listened?? not much...he says that thanks to me he has slowed way down from how he use to be...uh...huh? if that is true then he must have been moving so fast the rest of us mere mortals couldn't even see him before. i truly pray for bruce that the pace he keeps will not harm his health....the world needs more people like bruce, but i am afraid he is one of a kind.